I see today that I've never been good at this
My heart's too soft, both a blessing and a curse
motivating me to compassionate service
yet ripping me to shreds emotionally, illogically
For weeks, no big deal?!
It is a big deal to me if it means
being removed EVEN for good reasons from beloveds
Revolving door, massive wall out to meet me again
It is not easier this go around, not one bit!
In fact, it feels more painful
I will not let myself simply put a Band-Aid on this struggle
I choose to face this, tears still pouring down my face
I expect to cry until my face literally hurts ... again
Not what I want, but how do you stop a tsunami?
I know this is illogical, I know too I simply, honestly hurt
Yes, there are many things that could help ... BUT
they are not solutions ... merely temporary distractions
I do not wish to love less or for my heart to grow cold
but I admit I need help to put even one foot in front of the other
to traverse this lonely valley
And though I know YOU go with me,
my journey does not feel any less lonely
I think You will need to carry me for a while
