Fallen

The high and mighty have fallen
The horses all broken, the walls all shattered
The mothers cry out for the sons lost in the chaos
Blood has been spilled
The ground is watered with the tears of the hopeful innocent

Days and weeks pass
The arid fields show the first signs of healing with blooming weeds
It is too early to say that the wrongs have been righted
The children ask, "Mommy, is everything okay? 
Has the world been fixed?"
She longs to give hope with certainty
Yet her heart hesitates

In the underground, light for humanity was lifted up for years
The result is healing
Green abounds but not without cost
She is new but not the same world
Fragile like butterfly wings emerging anew
Hope lingers in the air desperate to abound and consume

Vulnerable

To let down the walls
To take off our masks
This is the beginning
Of being vulnerable
Of me getting to know you
Of us truly seeing each other in truth
And accepting each other
With full love
Unconditionally
As is ... because we all are flawed
We were not meant to function independently
We cannot go it alone for forever
And so I let you in
I take the risk
Jettisoning my fears
In the hope and confidence
That this loose guard is worth it
That with it I am deeply human
That sincere love will venture forth
Because I do not withhold
And show you the real me
The deepest one possible
Connecting beyond the cold handshakes
And permitting you to venture into
The realm of my messy heart and emotions
Like the little child we all once were
Who simply puts their head down
To rest and receive from one's mother
Free of everything save absolute trust

Thinking of You

I miss you ... deeply
I know you're going through something
Yet, I don't know what
Still, I miss your touch and laughter
I miss the possibility of us
I miss the joy and sanity that you give me
I think I miss more than anything you being happy and normal
Life always seems to bring you stress
I hope it gives you quiet and restful moments soon
Because I deeply care about you
I need you to be happy and cared for
You're too important to me
I'll just say it ... I love you
Perhaps there will never be an "us"
But that doesn't change that I love you,
That I want the best for you, that I want you cared for

149th

I can feel the hustle.
The mob just trying to make it.
The prostitutes giving it up
just so they can put food on the table
for the kids they were unexpectedly forced to have.
The baby daddies living separate lives
because of the stress
they never meant to create and intermingle with.
The oppressed immigrants
who came here as kids for a better life
only to be harassed and hated their whole lives.
The lack of opportunities and investment from others
because they say, "The Bronx has done it to themselves!"
Bright lives and hope shattered
from wrongful judgment and mass blindness.

The Journey Afoot

O dense fog, go thee hence from before my footsteps
Tarry not a lingering moment more upon my path
My sword is drawn, nay, it rests not inside sheath nor nigh the hilt
It stands watch, ready for sweeping slices delivering deadly blows upon mine enemies

I am in the chaotic forest where lustful eyes yearn to devour
They peer upon my form, lips purse, nostrils aroused
Talons and claws bristle with wanton cravings
The faint light within renders them incapable of lasciviousness

Invisible guardian guiding, I tread not lightly but steadily
Through this dark night of the soul into fresh terrain
The journey afoot, transformative, foreboding, new
It is a humbling walk but one in which I am not alone

Wanting You

Take me in your arms
Hold me, comfort me
I feel half the person I was meant to be
Without you here, without your support
I want to share all of me with you
I want us to be one in every way

We need each other
And I've become a realist to know that
The good times will be followed by bad
Yet, I want to weather them all
With you, for you, because of you
We need each other

Let's make a family
Let's make the world a better place
Let's love and support each other
To the best of our ability
Let's give grace and forgiveness to
Each other in the times we fail one another

Miscommunication

I heard you say "No" over and over and over again when you were really trying to express "Yes"

I heard you say you didn't want a family and kids when what you were trying to express was you didn't want me pressuring you, you didn't want to be a "placeholder"

I heard you say you hated my mind when you were really trying to say you always loved my heart

I heard you say you didn't want to touch me when all along you wanted to hold me but held back because I asked you to

I heard you say "We're done!" when what you were trying to express was you were jealous and I had made you so angry and sparked hate that you didn't know how to react in the moment

I hear you say "It's tragic!" and it truly is, worse than a Greek or Shakespearian tragedy because the truth is it took this for us to find out we've loved each other deeper than we ever knew

But now you're gone for a time because of that same epic love to allow me to discover what I've been waiting for my whole lifetime

The Plunge

I don't know you very well, but you let me jump off the diving board of life
and plunge into your world,
exploring the hidden caves below your warm waters,
sharing freely who you are, what you are
I liked what I saw, I liked that you were so open